January 2011
Gah.!!!!!!!!!!!
Why the fuck does everybody think im on drugs.?!?!?!??????? I mean really.!!!!!!! My teacher who doesnt rly kno me asked if i was on drugs cuz i quote on quote ” have all the signs” of being on drugs. He said i dnt concentrate ( nd thts aparently a sign) he doesnt fuckin kno tht its hard to concentrate due to swelling in my brain thats been causeing constant pain all over my head for...
Soo i got rly excited today when i got my acceptance letter to the highschool i rly wanted to go to. Nd on top of tht one of my close friends who knos like everything bout my life nd we hav no secrets got accepted also nd is prob going. Nd my twin bro got accepted too. Plus he got a 1000$ scholarship. ( nd rly i was happy for him cuz its his back up just incase he doesnt get accepted to this one...
When life gives you lemons...
Recently , my teacher told me “when life gives you lemonds, you make lemonade” for some reason this statement got me thinking.. So i went back up to my teacher nd said ” Mr.Rowel, Life gave me lemons, but heck i made a glass of orange juice” he looked at me like i was crazy, so i explained…. When life gives u lemons and you make lemonade , you arent a leader but...
Disaster
Ive got my hoodie up
Walking in the rain
Smiling up at the sky
Im done being sane
Im done with this pretending
It takes to long to master
Im done witg trying to hide
Im a wreak, im a disaster
Im done with trying to speak
When i know i wont be heard
Im done putting on this mask
And singing without a word
Im done crying
I can heal so much faster
If i admit
Im a wreak,...
Different Perspectives
You see a little girl
I see pieces from her fall
You see a blinding smile
I see a defensive wall
You see a happy girl
I see an easy, perfected act
You see her light filled eyes
I see a strugle to stay intact
You see an obrdiant child
I see her trying to fight back
You see a perfect girl in white
I see a depressed child in black
You see a little angle
I see a demon in...
Broken song
You can hear her singing sometimes
But her voicd it sounds so sad
Yes you can hear her singing sometimes
A song of what she had
The tune would make you cry though
And the words would pull your heart
The angles seem to listen in heaven
To the song that broke her apart
She gave up on being happy
Shes left all hope behind
Now she just keeps singing the words
That hes left within...
Open your eyes
Do you see her smiling.?
Lips streched across her face
Can you or wont you see
Its been fixed into place
Do you see any emotions.?
When she shows that fragile grin
Just another Cinderella
Wondering what could have been
Do you see her pain.?
Hidden in her eyes
Just another girl
Hiding in her lies
Dont you ever see her pleading.?
When she says shes okay
Hoping youll see...
Shes not me
I broke the mirror today
She was all i could see
I broke the mirror today
Cause that girl wasnt me
I knocked it off the wall
Let it crash to the floor
There is no way shes me
Im not her anymore
I have started to repair
But she still looks so broken
I have told all my secrets
But she still has some unspoken
I am now strong
She is so weak
My tears dont fall
But hers...
Beautiful Smile
She does not know love
Its something she cant see
So she locked up her heart
And threw away the key
She cant get to her happiness
Her smiles cant reach her eyes
Pain has taken over her world
Drowning her in her own lies
Suffocating pressure
From the lock on her heart
I know its stopped beating
To far gone to restart
The light in her eyes faded
They are nothing more than...
Silence
To them she is silent
She does not need to speak
A girl holding no words
Does that make her a freak.?
She enjoys being alone
Listening to the falling rain
Her silence has a reason
But its something she wont explain
If you ask her she will sing
But shell never speak a word
But if you listen closely
Its the song of a caged bird
-T.Macc
Dont leave her
Theres a little girl crying
Wondering why they leave
Watching them all walk away
Breaking the heart on her sleeve
Dying from the inside out
You can watch her lips turn blue
They all say they wont leave her
But its too good to be true
Theres a little girl crying
Hoping youll see her pain
But no ones there for her
As her tears fall like rain
She cant take it if one more...
This is what ive died for
Loves so special
Took my breath away
It might be why
Why i died today
It cut me up
Went over the wall
Was it worth it.?
The shattering fall
All the worthless tears
And the smiles that reachec my eyes
Is love just a game.?
Or a death sentence surprise
Like thorns on a rose
You dont feel the pain
Or the blood dripping
From your severed vein
To caught up in the...
War
Come brothers and sisters
Stand by my side
Go protect your freedom
Your countrys pride
Go turn the Earth red
Maybe this time history wont repeat
Dont you think its wrong.?
Leaving broken bodies on the street
Arent we supposed to learn
From mistakes we have made
We could be stronger together
Rather than weakened and afraid
Murders ok now.?
You can justify a death.?
We...
Queen of Pain-? ( shitty title)
Ive got nothing left to loose
Im just an empty shell
A souless walking body
Thats been drug to hell
These demons chase you
Take you apart
And oh so slowly
Eating away your heart
Their cutting you up
Enjoying you screams
Smiling and laughing
Shreading your dreams
Chaining your body
Watching your tears
Silently feeding
Off of your fears
They wont let you die
Your...
Hate
Its so much easier to hate
I dont need love to survive
Or a smile pinned on my face
To prove that im still alive
I dont need you
I dont need to feek
Im happy with hate
I dont need to heal
Just leave me alone
Just let me cry
I promise im fine
These tears will dry
Ill be okay now
Because i finally see
That love does blind us
But hate will set us free
-T.Macc
Lullaby
( this one is about a girl whos being bullied- if u kno me for real than ud kno why i wrote this)
Only a few chords
But a story it does tell
Softly humming a lullaby
One she knows so well
A few meaningless words
But she takes them all to heart
Listening to this lullaby
As it softly tears her apart
She hates the melody
The rythem the notes so off key
She hates how it drowns...
Shes Gone
Youre wondering where she went
Well if you looked then youd see
That little girl you used to know
Is no longer apart of me
You think shes still there
That shell wake up one day
But shes buried in the ground
And that is where shell stay
She layed awake every night
Awaiting your return
Never forgetting the lesson
You forced her to learn
Her smile finally disappeared
And her...
Start Another Verse
Sitting in the dark
No reason to why
All alone by yourself
Minutes ticking by
A blank piece of paper
A used up pen
Messed up thoughts
Since who knows when
No one there to read
No ones there to care
So ill write another verse
Then ill stop i swear
Another hidden message
One more secret to hide
Hands visibly shaking
As you let out whats inside.
-T.Macc
Hollow
How much can a person bear
Till their heart is hollow
No more love for you to give away
No more dreams you want to follow
Because empty is better than pain
And numb is better than feeling
Hate is safer than love
No more worrying about healing
No tears for you to shed
No more emotions to hide
You simply dont care anymore
That some people lied
Smiles get easier to fake
As...
Strong
She smiles everyday
Like there is nothing wrong
You would never know
What she does to be strong
The secrets she wont share
Hiding what shes felt
Her own worst enemy
Playing the cards dealt
She never removes her mask
She doesnt want them to see
What she so cleaverly hides
From everyone to be fre
If you took a picture of her
Could you point out whats wrong.?
A fragile...
Shes So Alone
Living in the dark
Wont open her eyes and see
Doesnt listen to the world
To her heart there is no key
No feeling in her words
She wont ever let you in
If she told you every lie shes told
She wouldnt know where to begin
So secretive about her life
Some nights she cant sleep
Circles underneath her eyes
From counting invisible sheep
She pushes people away
Not a good reason...
Tommorrow. ( this is for Kelsey)
Tommorows another day
Another choice, another chance
Sadly another beginning
Gone at first glance
Tommorrows another day
One we’ll never know
Ive let you get to close
And now ill have to go
Tommorrows another day
One more night to stay awake
Wondering what to do
Was this all a mistake.?
Tommorrows another day
One you wont see with me
So unless you can save the...
Dont Forget
Dont forget
To always dream and believe
Dont forget
To wear your heart on your sleeve
Dont forget
Time likes to fly
Dont forget
To say good-bye
Dont forget
About your past
Dont forget
It might not last
Dont forget
The tears youve cried
Dont forget
They finally dried
Dont forget
About that knife
Dont forget
You won your life
Dont forget
About all your...
